On a Day Like Today.

Basically on a day like today I would like to just snuggle down in my bed with a book. I had to make do with the car but the book I was reading was not helping. I shall explain.
Today I realized, finally, that my dear PT Cruiser is gone. It isn't so much that it is gone that makes me immeasurably sad but the memories that I miss.

• Being hit with a spoon because someone decided throwing his pudding cup top out the window was a good idea
• my car being called the "blue zit" which I shall take as a term of endearment.
• running everywhere in that car cuz it was easier to handle.
• parking cllleeeaaar down the walmart parking lot and getting guff for it
• dropping my phone in the cup holder which was full of water and still having the best birthday of my life.
• squiggly driving with my sister cuz that's what we did
• Kissing in the headlights.
• etc.

I took for granted all those fun things til I had those memories hit me today.
The reason the book I was reading was making life harder is cuz I happened to be reading "Charlie St.Cloud" I was told months ago to see the movie but haven't yet. Borders was having a sale so I bought the book and use a picture of the person whose favorite movie it is as a bookmark. (that probably sounds weird)
He doesn't know I'm reading it. He would probably freak out because I'm READING it haha
But sadly he doesn't really have a say in what I do till he actually says something

On a day like today I cried.

oh happy day

My daddy traded in the beautiful blue cruiser
:[
That's sad.

all sorts of stuff on dads phone ;)

I am currently at the kengarff dealership.
My wisdom teeth are gone, my jaw is semi working, my dad and I went on an excursion to look at cars for fun and actually are trading in our truck for a new dark gray one. Fun fun!!!

This ones for you!

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Dear Michael Milkanin,
Thank you for sharing this song with me.
And thank you so much for your amazing support and talent and all the things you taught me.
Corlissa.


To all of the rest of you,
This song helped me through a hard time that no one knew was really hard for me.
I hid what I was feeling and this song somehow made it all better.

This ones for you!
All of you


Oh HAPPY Day!!!

One Moment

(an original [crappy] lyric by Corlissa Jensen)
(V1)
I don't want to hear another song
Like the ones I heard today
I don't want to say the things I said
Yesterday.
I want you to explain
But you already have.
(chorus)
Give me one moment
To say how I feel
give me one second
To change your mind
Just give me one chance to turn your head
and say
...I miss you
(V2)
Don't let me hold you back
Like I have in the past
Don't let me hurt you or me
Like I know I am
I want to change who I was
But still to stay the same
(chorus)
Give me one moment
To say how I feel
Give me one second
To change your mind
Just give me one chance to turn your head
and say
(Bridge)
I look back and I see you
I see who I was and who I am now
Nothing I can say can bring that back
But I don't want to hurt myself anymore
I'm not a masochist
so make up your mind
(la fin)
Give me one moment
give me one second
don't let me humiliate who I am
Just let me say this once
I just miss

you

YASE...Best week? DUH

Last week I went to YASE camp at BYU. twas awesome. That is all I can say.
Monday:auditions...we won't go into that ey.
Tuesday: exhausting dance class. (dear michael, if you were aiming to make me tired...mission accomplished)
Entertainers showcase.I totally nailed my number thank you. Even Randy Boothe the man in charge said so...oh I'm sooo not being modest at the moment.....
Wednesday: Dirty Rotten Scoundrels. Amazing! Hilarious!
Thursday: Dance I even got up the nerve to ask someone totally awesome/hilarious/attractive/tall to dance. Which yes I am proud of :) The fireside as always was fantastic but the spirit this year hit me really hard.  It may have been the songs considering I sang two of them this past year or it may have been what was going on in my life, but either way it was perfect.
Friday was the big performance. some of the people I invited did not show so after the first performance I was suprised to see completely different people. I was hurt but that's ok some things don't work out.
I sang my solo number (don't rain on my parade) in the concert and didn't nail it as well partially because I was out of breath even before I went on stage :(
Thank you to everyone who believed in me and helped me.  and thanks to everyone who made last week a completely perfect experience.

OH HAPPY DAY!

It's Just Life.

As I attended Young Ambassadors camp this last week, I was going with several fears. The fear of not making friends. The fear of my voice failing me. The fear of losing my composure in front of people I barely knew. Etc.
My saturday night last week kinda fell apart but it was ok after I started YASE and tried to forget.
I made friends. more than I can count.
My voice didn't fail me. Not really suprising.
But I did lose my composure. I cried my eyes out on thursday when the YA's sang for our fireside. Which I always do, but 'Where can I turn for peace' hit me really hard because that was how I was feeling and I have sang that song in church and it is very dear to my heart. 
I almost lost it Friday night also when I found out after the first show that my 'best friend' the one who caused me much stress on saturday had not shown up. I was hurt and tried very hard to hide it.  I did fine till a friend came up and asked me if I was ok.  Nice move.  (thank you, Dillon)
haha When I told him what was going on he responded with "boys are stupid" which was really funny coming from him. 
I went on for the second show and the meaning of one of the songs hit me. It's just life. You can do whatever you want with it. It is your life. When you are down, you still have the strength to go on, even if it takes you a friends comment to do it.
I will write my entire synopsis of Yase tomorrow....maybe....if I remember.
But for now.....

OH HAPPY DAY!!!