Mean

You, with your words like knives and swords and weapons that you use against me

You have knocked me off my feet again got me feeling like I'm nothing

You, with your voice like nails on a chalkboard, 

calling me out when I'm wounded

You, pickin' on the weaker man

Well, you can take me down with just one single blow

But you don't know what you don't know

Someday I'll be living in a big old city

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

You, with your switching sides and your walk-by lies and your humiliation

You, have pointed out my flaws again as if I don't already see them

I'll walk with my head down trying to block you out 'cause I'll never impress you

I just wanna feel okay again

I'll bet you got pushed around, somebody made you cold

But the cycle ends right now 'cause you can't lead me down that road

And you don't know what you don't know

Someday I'll be living in a big old city

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

And I can see you years from now in a bar, talking over a football game

With that same big loud opinion but nobody's listening

Washed up and ranting about the same old bitter things

Drunk and grumbling on about how I can't sing

But all you are is mean

All you are is mean and a liar and pathetic and alone in life

And mean, and mean, and mean, and mean

But someday I'll be living in a big old city

And all you're ever gonna be is mean, yeah

Someday, I'll be big enough so you can't hit me

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

Someday, I'll be, living in a big old city

(Why you gotta be so mean?)

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

(Why you gotta be so mean?)

Someday, I'll be big enough so you can't hit me

(Why you gotta be so mean?)

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

Mean~Taylor Swift

I want to thank all of you who see me for me! I feel so loved and accepted by you all that my life is just bright!

I need to just ignore the people who have been making me feel that this song is appropriate for this time. 

Direct: I do have standards!! in case anyone was wondering. 

"you don't know what you don't know." 

Don't judge me.

"let he that is innocent cast the first stone" 

I love all of you who love me for me! You are wonderful.

You make my day every day and you make me feel so special.

Those who don't, this song is for you and I hope you know I wish you the best.

Oh Happy Day! 

Love D'liss!

Be Still My Soul

I'm missing home and my parents so I wanted to post something that reminds me of them. The last time I sang in church I sang with my dad with my mom accompanying. I loved this hymn before then, but now it hits me even harder after arranging it myself and singing it with the people that I truly love and miss. It calms me, but of course it makes me cry.

Be still, my soul: the Lord is on thy side.

Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain.

Leave to thy God to order and provide;

In every change, He faithful will remain.

Be still, my soul: thy best, thy heavenly Friend

Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

Be still, my soul: thy God doth undertake

To guide the future, as He has the past.

Thy hope, thy confidence let nothing shake;

All now mysterious shall be bright at last.

Be still, my soul: the waves and winds still know

His voice Who ruled them while He dwelt below.

Be still, my soul: when dearest friends depart,

And all is darkened in the vale of tears,

Then shalt thou better know His love, His heart,

Who comes to soothe thy sorrow and thy fears.

Be still, my soul: thy Jesus can repay

From His own fullness all He takes away.

Be still, my soul: the hour is hastening on

When we shall be forever with the Lord.

When disappointment, grief and fear are gone,

Sorrow forgot, love’s purest joys restored.

Be still, my soul: when change and tears are past

All safe and blessèd we shall meet at last.

Be still, my soul: begin the song of praise

On earth, believing, to Thy Lord on high;

Acknowledge Him in all thy words and ways,

So shall He view thee with a well pleased eye.

Be still, my soul: the Sun of life divine

Through passing clouds shall but more brightly shine.

Oh Happy Day.

love d'liss

Oh Yeah, Just Forgetting to TYPE!

No big deal, just havent had any time to spare for my dear blog. Not that I think anyone reads the dang thing. 

I am exhausted. I honestly have not slept well for the past 3 days. I'm not completely sure why. I spent over 2 hours in the library yesterday and then went to the gym. I am so done with this week already and it's only hump day. (hump day means wednesday cuz its the center hump) 

I need a nap, but honestly I am sitting in a Community Attache meeting.....And I have decided to give myself a manicure directly after this. And after that I shall watch a movie and REST!!!!

OH HAPPY DAY!!

10 Things I Learned at College....Today.

1. There is a music theory placement test and I don't know triads

2. It is a very good thing I am changing my major, because honestly I love my Media and Society class.

3. English and Italian diction is gonna take dedication and insanity.

4. I have no idea who John Jacob Niles is....but I will by the end of September.

5. Free food on campus is always nice even if there's a line.

6. Never decide to work out with Zach. 

7. Freshman 15 won't happen to me because of #6

8. Tears are pointless. 

9. I should go on dates, but oh yeah, not my call........hint hint boys

10. I am not in High School anymore. Thanks.

All of you back home, I'm doin fine. Just a bit sore cuz I did nothing hard all summer but lift boxes. 

Night All.

Oh Happy Day.

LEGIT

Totally got my Attache name-tag today!!! So awesome! spelled PERFECTLY!!! My attache shirt fits perfectly also. FOR ONCE!!! Ordered shirts never end up fitting right cuz I am so weird.....BUT IT'S LOVELY!!!!

Pearly Whites

Teeth, You Suck! How could you do this to me??? I already have millions of fillings because for some reason I have really light enamel.....did tooth 37 really have to have another issue?? 

Story of my dental life. 
I did not go to the dentist for the first 9 years of my life. My mother had a terrible dentist at the time that she was pregnant and he made her never want to go back. When I finally went to a dentist they thought I needed to get a root canal. I didn't, we went down the street to another dentist and he was amazing enough to just fill the tooth. Later, like 2 years later, I ended up breaking the side of the tooth on a Halloween Jellybean. So, I had to go back to the dentist and he put in a silver permanent filling. 20 fillings later, I ended up with a cavity that was digging beneath the silver filling. The dentist had to dig the entire thing out and rebuild the filling in my tooth....again. This was a year and a half ago. I went in this morning for the first time by myself mind you, and was informed that I need yet another tiny filling and that I need a crown. Was I surprised? Nope. Neither were my parents. I promise I brush and everything, but with chalk for teeth it's really not enough, I have unavoidable issues. 

Hopefully I survive this and then.......the move.....

oh not-so-happy day.....

Let's see...

Let's see how many times i can be going to write on my blog and completely space out and forget to do so. Let's see how long it takes me to realize that i'm leaving in less than a month. Let's see how much monetary balance i can get before leaving. Maybe i wont go crazazie trying to organize and pack and prepare to leave everything i know behind. I will survive Oh happy day