So it's finals!

So DANG excited for Friday!!! Thanks to my dear lovely wonderful friend and attache Holly I get to head home right after my last horrible final. The final final of the semester will legitimately be the worst. English and Italian Diction.....I hate you. But it is nearly over!! So happy. I miss my family and my home and honestly my green walls. 

So there is no snow.....Which sucks. It's horrible. This is not Christmas! and yes, I know that snow is not what Christmas is about, but the lack of snow just makes me more homesick and it is hard to get into the spirit of Christ when you are homesick. 

Dear Mommy, Daddy, and Hillard, 

I'ma comin' home soon. This will be a wonderful break since I haven't seen my sister for more than one day since I came to school. Miss her to death. She is definitely getting hugged when I get there, Too Bad For Her!!! Hah. So the song on my mind right now that is supposed to come true here on Thursday (but that's questionable) is this:

Oh the weather outside is frightfulBut the fire is so delightfulAnd since we've no place to goLet It Snow! Let It Snow! Let It Snow!

It doesn't show signs of stoppingAnd I've bought some corn for poppingThe lights are turned way down lowLet It Snow! Let It Snow! Let It Snow!

When we finally kiss goodnightHow I'll hate going out in the storm!But if you'll really hold me tightAll the way home I'll be warm

The fire is slowly dyingAnd, my dear, we're still goodbyingBut as long as you love me soLet It Snow! Let It Snow! Let It Snow!

Oh Happy Day! This is truly the most wonderful time of year. (yes, I am one of those wierdos who would love winter even without the Christmas spirit. 

                     Love, D'liss!!

also. I moved out of my room. I live down the hall and I am loving it. Love MJ but needed something else.

Night!

Walk You to the Water- For My Sister

A song for my sister and the support I have been given. I love you. 

The best support system in my life is the one who teases me and helps me find who I am , but truly loves me and tells me in the best ways. 

Love you sis. This ones for you. Thank you for being my shelter from the thunder and not letting me go under.

There’s no freedom for the faithless here

Who only see through hollow eyes of fear

Have you traveled well to what you want to be ?

Or would you count yourself another casualty ?

Hope you know that you can hold my hand

If you can truely understand

Mine’s a love you can take when you need it

But not a love you can leave when you don’t

When you find you’re slowly going under

And the light only makes it harder

The light only makes it harder to see

I will be your shelter from the thunder

Just as long as you give this promise to me

And let me walk you to the water

There’s no running blind to paradise

No gift of precious time for thinking twice

On the chances you might be taking

In waking up to face that you’ve been faking all along

From the statues on the tallest towers

To the whispers in the smallest hours

You know this moment’s too good to waste it

So don’t you waste this moment alone

When you find you’re slowly going under

And the light only makes it harder

The light only makes it harder to see

I will be your shelter from the thunder

Just as long as you give this promise to me

And let me walk you to the water

If you just let go

You will come to know

What I mean when I say that it’s okay

To be this bold

I could ease the hurt

If you only turn at my word

and you do me this honour

Let me walk you to the water

Yeah, Yeah, yeah

Let me walk you to the water

Walk You to the Water~ The Pigott Brothers.

Oh Happy Day!

Happy for you.

Courtesy of my dear sister Hillary, I have a new song for today :D

I got a call from my ex today

Telling me she got engaged 

She only told me to hurt me

'Cause that's how she was 

And she still hasn't changed

She said, "Honey, aren't you happy for me"

"You know I'd be happy for you"

I said, "If happy for you means I hate you

"Then I'm happy for you

"If crying all night means I'm out getting drunk

"Then I've been crying, too

"I know you're only calling to make you feel good

"And see if I'm blue

"So, if happy for you means I hate you

"Then I'm happy for you"

And she told me about the new guy

And his big corporate job

He's got a fancy car, and he ain't no slob,

and then

(Really?!)

She said, "Honey, aren't you happy for me"

"You know I'd be happy for you"

I said, "If happy for you means I hate you

"Then I'm happy for you

"If jealous of you means I'm out getting laid

"Then I've been jealous, too

"I know you're only talking to make you feel good

"And see if I'm blue

"So, if happy for you means I hate you

"Then I'm happy for you"

Why can't you get on with your life

You keep coming 'round and tear my heart with your knife

You don't want me back, you just want me your way

I'm happy you called so you can hear me say

"If happy for you means I hate you

"Then I'm, I'm happy for you

"If crying all night means I'm out getting drunk

"Then, baby, I've been crying, too

"I know you're only talking to make you feel good

"And see if I'm blue

"So, if happy for you means I think you're a jerk

"If happy for you means get out of my life

"If happy for you means I hate you

"Then, I'm pretty sure

"No, I'm a hundred percent positive

"That I'm happy for you"

~Happy for you-Jaron and the long road to love

My Fellow Americans,

Our President Is Barack Obama for another 4 years. I personally have no big issues with this.

I will not be posting all over Facebook about this fact however, because I feel that telling all those who voted against who you wanted that they are idiots is a lack of judgment or social aptitude. This is a rude thing to do and really..... 

DO YOU HAVE TO TYPE LIKE THIS THE WHOLE TIME????

I am sure that whoever is watching over us in heaven (whether you believe in a god or some other being or no being at all) will not allow us to have complete downfall. 

I believe that Obama will do us proud and that we will gain some faith in his tactics if Congress lets anything he proposes  pass.

Yes, It is possible to be LDS and NOT root for Romney, I do it every day, but I respect those  for him because they obviously have their own reasons and 

ARE NOT idiots. 

And YES Obama IS our President and we should support him as such.

Thank you!

(Yes, I realize that the song doesn't quite fit politics, but it does fit my emotions at the moment.)

Oh, Happy Day

Love D'liss

Mean

You, with your words like knives and swords and weapons that you use against me

You have knocked me off my feet again got me feeling like I'm nothing

You, with your voice like nails on a chalkboard, 

calling me out when I'm wounded

You, pickin' on the weaker man

Well, you can take me down with just one single blow

But you don't know what you don't know

Someday I'll be living in a big old city

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

You, with your switching sides and your walk-by lies and your humiliation

You, have pointed out my flaws again as if I don't already see them

I'll walk with my head down trying to block you out 'cause I'll never impress you

I just wanna feel okay again

I'll bet you got pushed around, somebody made you cold

But the cycle ends right now 'cause you can't lead me down that road

And you don't know what you don't know

Someday I'll be living in a big old city

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

And I can see you years from now in a bar, talking over a football game

With that same big loud opinion but nobody's listening

Washed up and ranting about the same old bitter things

Drunk and grumbling on about how I can't sing

But all you are is mean

All you are is mean and a liar and pathetic and alone in life

And mean, and mean, and mean, and mean

But someday I'll be living in a big old city

And all you're ever gonna be is mean, yeah

Someday, I'll be big enough so you can't hit me

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

Someday, I'll be, living in a big old city

(Why you gotta be so mean?)

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

(Why you gotta be so mean?)

Someday, I'll be big enough so you can't hit me

(Why you gotta be so mean?)

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

Mean~Taylor Swift

I want to thank all of you who see me for me! I feel so loved and accepted by you all that my life is just bright!

I need to just ignore the people who have been making me feel that this song is appropriate for this time. 

Direct: I do have standards!! in case anyone was wondering. 

"you don't know what you don't know." 

Don't judge me.

"let he that is innocent cast the first stone" 

I love all of you who love me for me! You are wonderful.

You make my day every day and you make me feel so special.

Those who don't, this song is for you and I hope you know I wish you the best.

Oh Happy Day! 

Love D'liss!

Be Still My Soul

I'm missing home and my parents so I wanted to post something that reminds me of them. The last time I sang in church I sang with my dad with my mom accompanying. I loved this hymn before then, but now it hits me even harder after arranging it myself and singing it with the people that I truly love and miss. It calms me, but of course it makes me cry.

Be still, my soul: the Lord is on thy side.

Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain.

Leave to thy God to order and provide;

In every change, He faithful will remain.

Be still, my soul: thy best, thy heavenly Friend

Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

Be still, my soul: thy God doth undertake

To guide the future, as He has the past.

Thy hope, thy confidence let nothing shake;

All now mysterious shall be bright at last.

Be still, my soul: the waves and winds still know

His voice Who ruled them while He dwelt below.

Be still, my soul: when dearest friends depart,

And all is darkened in the vale of tears,

Then shalt thou better know His love, His heart,

Who comes to soothe thy sorrow and thy fears.

Be still, my soul: thy Jesus can repay

From His own fullness all He takes away.

Be still, my soul: the hour is hastening on

When we shall be forever with the Lord.

When disappointment, grief and fear are gone,

Sorrow forgot, love’s purest joys restored.

Be still, my soul: when change and tears are past

All safe and blessèd we shall meet at last.

Be still, my soul: begin the song of praise

On earth, believing, to Thy Lord on high;

Acknowledge Him in all thy words and ways,

So shall He view thee with a well pleased eye.

Be still, my soul: the Sun of life divine

Through passing clouds shall but more brightly shine.

Oh Happy Day.

love d'liss

Oh Yeah, Just Forgetting to TYPE!

No big deal, just havent had any time to spare for my dear blog. Not that I think anyone reads the dang thing. 

I am exhausted. I honestly have not slept well for the past 3 days. I'm not completely sure why. I spent over 2 hours in the library yesterday and then went to the gym. I am so done with this week already and it's only hump day. (hump day means wednesday cuz its the center hump) 

I need a nap, but honestly I am sitting in a Community Attache meeting.....And I have decided to give myself a manicure directly after this. And after that I shall watch a movie and REST!!!!

OH HAPPY DAY!!

10 Things I Learned at College....Today.

1. There is a music theory placement test and I don't know triads

2. It is a very good thing I am changing my major, because honestly I love my Media and Society class.

3. English and Italian diction is gonna take dedication and insanity.

4. I have no idea who John Jacob Niles is....but I will by the end of September.

5. Free food on campus is always nice even if there's a line.

6. Never decide to work out with Zach. 

7. Freshman 15 won't happen to me because of #6

8. Tears are pointless. 

9. I should go on dates, but oh yeah, not my call........hint hint boys

10. I am not in High School anymore. Thanks.

All of you back home, I'm doin fine. Just a bit sore cuz I did nothing hard all summer but lift boxes. 

Night All.

Oh Happy Day.

LEGIT

Totally got my Attache name-tag today!!! So awesome! spelled PERFECTLY!!! My attache shirt fits perfectly also. FOR ONCE!!! Ordered shirts never end up fitting right cuz I am so weird.....BUT IT'S LOVELY!!!!

Pearly Whites

Teeth, You Suck! How could you do this to me??? I already have millions of fillings because for some reason I have really light enamel.....did tooth 37 really have to have another issue?? 

Story of my dental life. 
I did not go to the dentist for the first 9 years of my life. My mother had a terrible dentist at the time that she was pregnant and he made her never want to go back. When I finally went to a dentist they thought I needed to get a root canal. I didn't, we went down the street to another dentist and he was amazing enough to just fill the tooth. Later, like 2 years later, I ended up breaking the side of the tooth on a Halloween Jellybean. So, I had to go back to the dentist and he put in a silver permanent filling. 20 fillings later, I ended up with a cavity that was digging beneath the silver filling. The dentist had to dig the entire thing out and rebuild the filling in my tooth....again. This was a year and a half ago. I went in this morning for the first time by myself mind you, and was informed that I need yet another tiny filling and that I need a crown. Was I surprised? Nope. Neither were my parents. I promise I brush and everything, but with chalk for teeth it's really not enough, I have unavoidable issues. 

Hopefully I survive this and then.......the move.....

oh not-so-happy day.....

Let's see...

Let's see how many times i can be going to write on my blog and completely space out and forget to do so. Let's see how long it takes me to realize that i'm leaving in less than a month. Let's see how much monetary balance i can get before leaving. Maybe i wont go crazazie trying to organize and pack and prepare to leave everything i know behind. I will survive Oh happy day

Just over 2 months.

I move into my dorm on August 17. This is about a week before any other Freshman because I am a Community Attache...It is still weird to think that it's that short of a time. I'm shaken and nervous and don't want to leave certain people (scott, justin, my family). it's nerve wracking honestly. T-bird I am. I have things so easy here; my parents buy everything I need, I don't have to worry about paying for my laundry to be done, I have friends here who care about me and want me around, I have people who already love me and apparently will forever(hope that's true), I seem carefree when I'm home. I'll miss it here, but I really need the shooling and learning and the experience I will get will be amazing. Hopefully the promises of visits that I have gotten won't be forgotten and I won't be alone. 

Love you all. 2 months and I'll miss you all.

Oh Happy Day

Inspiring!

It's been a rather interesting and at points inspiring week. Last Sunday I had to opportunity to go receive my Patriarchal Blessing. Needless to say I bawled from the moment I asked my father to pray for me. It was an amazing experience and I learned that my God really does work through those he has appointed for us on earth and that I can receive my own revelation at times of need. 

On Tuesday I Graduated. It is still odd to think that I am officially out of High School and all the drama thereof. I may be growing older, but that doesn't mean I have to grow up right? At least not all the way. I plan on being like my amazing parents when I grow up and being responsible, but still have the sense of humor and the silliness that really partially defines ME. 

I have officially been hired by the Lindon Walmart. I don't know who came up with the idea of putting me in the electronics department, but that's where I am going as soon as my drug test goes through. 

On Saturday Justin took me and Scott and Kayden to a concert in Eagle Mountain. Chris Cagle! It was a supremely awesome concert!! The only part that really wasn't awesome was the fact that a fight broke out right in the middle. Chris had to stop the entire concert and call security and then he pulled a couple kids up on stage with him because they had been caught in the middle. I figured out just how protective the 3 young men I was with are though. All 3 of them started blocking as soon as they realized a fight was happening close to me. Even before the fight they were being attentive because the people near us (also the ones who started the fight) were drunk and they didn't want me hurt at all.  It was nice to know I was cared about honestly.

Chris Cagle was amazed at the welcome he felt at the concert and the love he seemed to feel from the audience and his fans. It was amazing, but it seems that Utah can be quite welcome when we finally get past judging our own.

Before this week even began my mother told me that we can feel inspired and feel closer to our beliefs through almost anything. Honestly this week proved it. In the middle of a crazy country concert I felt that I was loved and was never alone even though I may have been scared. Through all of the shock of this week I have felt my Father near me. 

Now I won't push my beliefs on others, because I refuse to judge others just because they aren't me. I have gotten too much of that myself from those who should have welcomed me with open arms as one of their own. But I will say this, whether you are LDS, Catholic, Muslim or Buddhist; there is always someone to be near you when needed and there is always love for those who need it. 

Oh Happy Day! 

Yes I'm behind.

I shall not. I cannot. I sadly will not be posting spiritually enriching thoughts every sunday....as is obvious by my lack of adherence to the concept.

BACK TO LIFE.

Calendar:

• May9-Talent show and Scott's Birthday
• May12-A Cappella State
• May13-Mothers day
• May18-Sr. Sluff Day @ Lagoon
• May19-Morp or in my case Movie Night i hope...
• May20-Seminary Graduation
• May23-Choir Concert
• May29-Graduation.

And that isn't even all of it!!!!

I need to catch up.....
Prom was on Saturday!! It was so much fun!! Boondocks on Friday for the day date, making corsages and boutonnieres with Scott and Kayden. and then Saturday night going to the dance and watching a movie with the group :D so fun!!!

I am going to post pictures asap! my sister took some in front of my house.

Spring Break.

I suppose Spring Break is nothing like what people say it is. In society this week is looked at as a time to go out and party non-stop with friends (sometimes inappropriately)....This is not the case for most. I don't know why this is a standard view because for one thing it is over-rated and somewhat idiotic. For me break is gonna be spending time with my mom. that's it. Some people are going on camp-outs, sleeping in everyday, or just staying home. Because my parents have time off at different times my mom and I are the only ones home this week so it should be interesting.....

I am obviously not 'standard'. I will be working in the yard, getting a slight tan before Choir Tour, spending exorbitant amounts of time with my mom, and cleaning......[my room, my house, my yard, my face(no more breaking out), my prom dress, etc.] I will not be having a tabloid spring break.

 It's a good thing.......

Oh Happy Day.

Job. Woot.

So basically I do not have a job yet. I have applied for several and FINALLY got a call yesterday. The Lindon walmart wants to hire me. The only problem is that I am a minor til June. Garden center sounds so fun!! I would get to tend plants, Get a tan, and actually do something I enjoy while working. They also wanted to call me about working in the bakery, but the lady who was going to call me decided not to because I was a minor and the Garden center management jumped right on it. They have to jump through a few hoops to hire me because of their policies and so I spent an hour in Walmart yesterday sitting with extremely good posture and eventually got sent home because they had ONE more person to talk to about my age and circumstance.

Faith.

Faith is not to have a perfect knowledge of things; therefore if ye have faith ye hope for things which are not seen, which are true. [Alma 32:21] 

As a young woman I was taught a short concept of how faith is gained and used to create a testimony of my own. I felt that my faith was sufficient, but after learning this I have grown so much.
S.E.E.D. The seed of faith itself will be planted in your heart, but also there are 4 words that describe what faith truly does and is. Swell, Enlarge, Enlighten, and Delicious. Your faith will swell and enlarge your heart and belief; It will enlighten your mind and become delicious unto you. Delicious does not pertain to how good it 'tastes', but more to how much you love it, how much you believe on it, and how much your faith blesses your life.

Please remember that you are a child of Heavenly Father, who loves you.

Have faith in His eternal plan, it centers on Christ, my savior and yours. 

This day was amazing. I watched conference, won at chess, lost at life (the board game) and watched once upon a time and had Chili cheese fries for dinner. Party? yes. I love conference. Fantastic messages that helped the Lord to speak to me and give me the peace I have been seeking for a year. 

I must get to bed as I have school and A Cappella festival tomorrow. I would have typed faster and more uplifting things if a blood vessel in my pinky hadn't popped a few minutes ago. 

Oh happy day! Love you. 

Values Introduction.

Starting tomorrow and going through a few Sundays I want to highlight one of the Young Women's Values each Sunday. I know that I will probably get a little off because I am slow, but I want to at least try. 
I am leaving soon for college and leaving my ward and I just want to highlight my beliefs and what I've learned so stay tuned I will try and post once every Sunday and end up with the value of Virtue and eventually my Testimony.
Thank you.


Oh happy day.
By the way, I will not be double posting on those days so if I have something else to say I will interject at the end of the posts.

Where is your right?

I found a direction that's right for me. 

Please don't judge my actions. 

Yeah, I've been put through hell and back, but you didn't know because I don't tend to share.

I've found a future that makes me happier than I've ever been. 

I've changed my own outlook on life.

I don't need to be told that I'm different; I know very well that I am.

"he will drag you down to the gulf of misery and endless woe"(Helaman 5:12)? oh, how well I know that.

But I climbed out. I dug my heels in and pulled harder than anyone knew and I changed my stars.

Your opinion of me doesn't really matter to me, I know the ones who really matter know what I really am. 

I know who I am. 

I am a daughter of My Heavenly Father; he has given me the strength to shine. 

So I will. 

That's right for me. 

He loves me for me, no matter what I say or do, He wants me to come home to Him and I plan on doing so. 

Whether you think I am on the right track or not is not highly important. 

I'm moving up.

This is right for me.

Finally.

I found what's right.

Have you?

What's right for you?

I pray you find it, wherever you are.

Oh happy day

Birthday Fail.

Happy Birthday Matt. I feel bad that I forgot your birthday was yesterday. Yes, I said forgot....I did. I tried to pass it off as a slip because I didn't see you, but that wasn't it. I just failed.
So Happy Birthday from me to you. Publicly. I shall apologize. Ugh. I told you I would remember and then I didn't. 

Love you Matt! Hope you know you are one of my best friends!

Other birthday news: I need help. What do you get a young man who is turning 18? I have NO idea and he isn't any help because if I ask he hugs me and says, "I already got everything I could ever want". I sincerely need your help friends!! 

By the way Matt, I have now mentioned you in my blog. Feel special?

Oh happy day! 

My obligatory Hunger Games post. and other ramblings.

Apparently people are currently REQUIRED to say something about Hunger Games so I guess this could count. Please Do Not Take Offense. I am sure the movie is well made, and I will see it eventually; it just isn't important to me right now.
 This is not a slam on what you enjoy, I just don't take kindly to being informed that I am "against normal" [rather loudly in the middle of class (immature-loud-mouth much?)] just because I am not enamored with a story about a distopian society where people kill each other for entertainment. I'm sorry the Love Triangle doesn't redeem it for me. I read all 3 books so please do not inform me that I don't know what I'm talking about. It just wasn't 'my cup of tea'. 


And a bit off subject, but No, I have not read George Orwell's 1984. That certainly does not mean that you have a right to tell me that I am uncultured and that I have never read classic Literature. I can assure you that I have.  Think through who you are slamming on and how she was brought up. My mother is an English teacher! 


Oh, I realize you could come up with millions of reasons why I am inferior to your vast intellect and maturity, but that wasn't a smart move. I know you are probably thinking how immature I am if you are reading this, but I haven't mentioned names and I am not incriminating you in any way. Just stating a fact and a flaw in your conduct. I know you think you're so funny and so smart, but really, SO AM I. I may have dropped Calculus, but that does not make me a complete imbecile. 


So thank you. You are so kind for giving me this chance to reflect on myself and my upbringing. I realize you have your tastes and I have mine, but please don't attempt to push your beliefs on me. They won't fit. And now I can realize just how stupid I was to take offense and move on and go back to being my positive happy self that I just recently got back. Thank you.

OH HAPPY DAY!! :)
Love, D'liss. 
Sorry friends, this all had to be said just for my mental state and emotional balance. I apologize sincerely if this offended you in any way. No disrespect intended. 

Obviously I have no time or focus....

changed the title.

Yes, Yes I did. I felt it needed to be a little more like the URL and kinda reflect how I feel a bit more instead of just being a silly name. So I changed it.
Changes in life cause Changes online. Get used to it dearies!


Oh Happy Day.

He's got guts.

Kissed.
Yes.
Last night.
I went to a movie, spent an hour at his house, and got kissed on my porch. No, not the awkward first kiss peck. KISSED.
How did he do it? He got the guts pretty fast.
I gave him a hug, said goodnight, and he gave me the funniest face....
I (spur of the moment) thought to say, "Do you need me to quote a country song at you?"(Are you gonna kiss me or not?)
He looked at me and very boldly responded, "No. Can I give you a kiss?"
So sweet. I love boys who don't feel that pessimism is their best friend. Seriously he got me out of the funk I have been in for almost a year, just by being there and making me feel amazing.
I didn't sleep last night, cuz I'm a weirdo and I have issues after a shock like that.
He totally just lost $100. He doesn't care.
Love.

OH HAPPY FA-REAK-IN DAY!!!