After missing a month I'm back. Yet again with the absences. If blogging was a class I would have an "F". Just got back from spring break a couple days ago and already I am realizing just how much I must do by the end of the semester!! I can do this!
I am really grateful for the joys and trials of this school year. All sorts of things have happened from my first "D" and losing people to getting to sing two solos in a concert and my best friend becoming a member of the LDS church. Every one of those things and more have helped to shape me from who I was at the beginning of the year to who I am now. I feel so much calmer and more myself than I ever have been. I am happy!
Even through disappointments and anger I am trying to be positive. I feel that some of the things in my life are testing me and training me into being more patient, calm and understanding. I feel kindof bad sometimes because I get down on myself for being upset, but I have to remind myself that I am allowed to be myself. I am learning that I don't always have to be for other people. Sometimes I have to be selfish and support my own feelings. I am learning this....finally.
I know I don't say it as much as I should, but my parents are amazing. I am so glad that I have them because they always know what to say and how to help me. They know how to help me learn to change and to grow. They know when something in my life is bothering me whether I tell them or not. They know who I am and what I want to do and they have helped me to achieve even more than I ever dreamed I'd do.
When I was little I wanted to marry a rich man, live next to my parents, and have 8-10 babies. Those dreams have changed, but the dreaming girl is still here. I love that my parents will support me no matter what I choose to do. I am so glad that my parents have given me the skills I need to survive and to thrive in the drama and struggle of the world. I am glad they have taught me to move past things and to be myself.
I am so happy to be who I am. I love my parents and the help that they have always given me.
I shall now end this slightly sappy post by saying.........
I CAN DO THIS!!!!!
OH HAPPY DAY!!!!
